It's a Trap

As an introverted, shy guy, hard of hearing, hard to talk, I don't tend to meet people easily, specifically women. Girls. Women. At this age I should really refer to women as women and not girls, but I just don't. I know why. My entire dilemma kind of points out why.

I want to talk to a woman, but I've spent the last couple hours hashing it over, practicing what to say and seeking advice from female friends. So, I'm like a boy in this, unsure, anxious, nervous. So it stands to reason in my awkward brain that I'd think of the object of my desire as being the equivalent, a girl.

My interactions with her have been innocent, but they have been in such a capacity, that it's not technically appropriate in some context for me to contact her. I mean, it could be, depending on the kind of person she is. I mean, she seems cool, but I don't know.

I just want to talk, but there was a time when for me to pursue a woman in this way, was considered and called, stalkerish. I was just too big a fan of the romantic comedies and didn't understand that was acceptable in make believe, is not acceptable in real life.

But that was 10 years ago. Now we live in this world where Facebook is the phone book. So what's the harm in looking a girl up? I want to talk to her because I like her and if she's not interested ... well, there's other girls to like.

I'm just thinking about it too much, now. Girls. Sheesh.